As I sit here recalling the consistent oscillation of emotions experienced between 5 pm on November 3rd through 9:26 am on November 7th, from heightened nerves to inflated confidence, from heavy anxiety to deep sadness, and a healthy amount of tears, I finally feel overwhelmed with relief, gratitude, and sincere hope for our future.
That…
Brandon and I go way back… specifically, to October 3rd, 2020, when we met on the set of ‘Bat Girl at War’ – a short fan film we were selected to star in by the lovely Alexzander Rogers.
He put on his green Riddler costume and I could tell he was born to play a…
I was about five years old when I pulled at a loose thread dangling from the edge of my underwear. It must have ended somewhere along my vulva because when I tugged to remove it, it tickled the whole way out and I felt a tingling sensation I’d never felt before. I'm not sure I…
It was roughly 2 am when I felt the shame swim through my body like I was slowly being poisoned; I could sense this devastating heat pulse through every fiber of my being as I wiped away the hot tears, my bottom lip quivering.
I let the street lights guide my pink and white Vans…
Moving to South Korea was the hardest thing I ever did.
I’d never been so far away from home for such a long period of time. I assume it would have been easier if I were in a larger city like Seoul, but I was placed in a very small town called Yeongam in the…
"WHAT DID YOU TAKE!?! WHAT DID YOU TAKE??!!" I heard my mom shouting repeatedly as I woke up in a fog, despite my best efforts to end it all.
I’d consumed 350 Advil, 70 Propranolol, a pack of Claritin, and an entire bottle of NyQuil, followed up by two gram-sized dabs of wax, and a…
Smarmo. It’s the name I gave the zit on my chin. Sometimes, when I’m really put off by a breakout, I’ll give it a name and welcome it into our home. “Hello, Smarmo,” I’ll smile in the mirror with my chin tilted up to get a nice visual, “I’ll make sure to be a…
Don’t die, don’t die, please God don’t die!
I had no idea what would happen when a dumb ass twenty-something, working on one of his first music videos put regular gasoline in the diesel tank of a 4-ton truck carrying tens of thousands of dollars’ worth of set design and equipment.
I figured at some…
I first met Devon circa 2008, playing beer pong at a house party in Peoria, and naturally, we bonded over our shared name, as well as our ability to sink a white ball in the last red cup to seal a glorious win.
We connected sporadically over the years following, and more recently, through Instagram…

